Still Moving Onwards

Despite everyone & their dog's best attempt in Canada to squish me, well not all of Canada but a good chunk of it, I am still moving onwards. If anything like I have mentioned before this has given me probably 5x more charecter than compared to when I left, & where I'd be right now had I stayed. Yes, I am bankrupt, am slowing moving forward, & many other things. The thing that amazes me is the music that is coming out of me. Wow. My work has never really been commercial. I never tried to be cool, I jusr did what I found interesting, & was kinda' capable of, & had the tools at hand to do it with. Anyhow after getting back into the whole musician thing I spent the better part of tonight looking up a lot of the hair bands I liked back in the 80's. Damn there was some good ones & there was some fantastic music made. I tended to like the more obscure ones, & downright outrageous ones. Um let's see a quick list of metal bands I enjoyed & some of them are still around today. L.A. Guns, Guns N Roses, Faster Pussycat, Cinderella, Poison, Motley Crue, Great White, Ratt, & a few others. I find it funny how I liked & still like all these bands, but how I couldn't play metal if my life depended on it. True I do play guitar, harmonia, & like making beats on the old laptop, but metal never enters the equation. I guess in the background of my mind somewhere it floats. Intro, verse, verse, chorus, verse, chorus, solo, verse, chorus, outro. The are dozens of variations to it, we can't forget the breaks either, & well I never delved to far into formulas for song making either. I just sorta' have gotta' some idea & fleshed it out somewhat. I can't do the whole thing alone. I used to like it at jams when I'd go jam with the blues players here in town & they'd heard my stuff often enough & could figure out something to put with it. God those were fun times. Then I did the solo artist thing forever. Here & then I'd collaborated with someone & tried to start to get a band or whatever going but it never materialized cuz I was too wound up in other things & so were the folks I had collaborated with. Maybe I should joined that rock band way back when I was still in highschool. I was singing country songs at the time, but my delivery was very punk with a rock n roll feel I guess why else would've some local rock band wanted me to join them. Anyhow maybe when I get a guitar again & if I ever settle down for long enough to form a band I might. Until then I'll just make beats on my laptop, & write some new songs on guitar if & when I ever get one again. I have forgotten how to play most of the stuff I wrote except one or two songs. I have done a million different things in art since then as well. I guess no matter where I am as long as I can make something I am somewhat happy. Though nothing is as fun as being on stage in front of a crowd doing your thing with some folks behind you. Anyhow it's getting late gotta' pull my clothes out of the dryer, take a leak then go to bed.